Post by iya09 on Jun 30, 2008 23:21:56 GMT -5
It was almost dawn; I’m standing here next to you as I wonder about the events that happened a year ago. I can’t believe it has been a year already.
Flashback:
“What do you think of this weather?” You asked me with a hint of concern in your tone. I look out the window and see that it was raining hard. “Don’t worry, it’ll dry up soon,” I assured you with a smile.
End flashback
You were going to visit your parents that day. Coincidently, the big storm hit the city that day too. Then I realized that you felt something was going to happen to you and now I feel regret for not stopping you. Maybe, if I had stopped; I wouldn’t be here visiting you in your grave and trying to convince myself not to cry.
Flashback:
It was nine pm in the evening and as usual I was reading my favorite book before going to bed. It was still raining hard. Then the phone rang; I grudgingly stood up the bed and answer the phone.
“Hello is this Miss Montez?” I heard a man’s voice from the receiver.
“Yes, this is she,” I replied. Something inside me was starting to crumble.
Then the man told me. He told me he was from a hospital just outside of town. He told me that they found your car, crash under an electric pole. They told me that you didn’t…
I couldn’t bear the news. As soon as I hung up the phone; I laid in my bed sobbing as the thunder rolls louder every second. The very next morning, I thought everything was just a nightmare but then your parents called. That same day, I drove to your parents’ house and the three of us tried to console each other and made preparations for your funeral.
During your funeral, friends went to me and gave me their condolences. However I didn’t want that, I want you to be there and tell them to give me space. I remember watching as they slowly lower your casket. I couldn’t take it. Depression had taken over me. I wanted to walk away but then I gazed at your grieving parents, your friends and I realized that I wasn’t the only one who lost you.
End flashback
I sat next to your grave and watch the sunrise. I felt that I was watching it with you. “Do you remember our engagement party?” I asked out aloud as if you were there to answer, “I never told you this but it was the happiest day of my life.” I chuckled a little.
“I still wish you’re here,” I said again to you as if you can here me, “Do you want me to sing?” I took the wind breeze as a reply from you. After I sang our song, I stood up to face the day of my letting go. I left a note to you of my farewell.
Dear Troy,
Thank you for giving me a chance to break free to the world. You open up new wonders to my life. I will always love you but know I’m ready to let go. Good bye Troy.
Love,
Gabriella.
(kisses)